So this September, which honestly feels like years ago at this point, I signed up for a personal essay writing class to take with Media Bistro and it starts next week. Gulps. I knew myself back then. I remember saying, "I'm going to sign up for this now and be stuck with it, otherwise I'm going to chicken out and not actually sign up for the class when the time comes."
Oh me, outsmarting myself, why'd you have to do that? The class starts on Wednesday and I'm scared, you guys! I'm totally anxious that I will have nothing to write about and that what I do end up writing about will be trivial and silly and dumb compared to what everyone else is writing about. I'm also really worried that it will be A LOT of hard work and that I won't be able to handle it.
Now, I know how I sound. I'm not writing this post to have people tell me that I'm a good writer in the comments. I get those comments sometimes without even asking and they totally make my day. I'm not joking, they make me have the best day ever. But I guess I wanted to write this post to show other's my vulnerability, because I know that I'm not the only writer who feels this way, and to just tell you all about what I'm going to be doing! My goal is to try and get these essays that I have yet to write published somewhere. I will keep you posted as much as I can, because maybe talking about it a lot will make it a lot less scary.
In the mean time, I know a lot of you are writers too, so I thought I'd post the exercise the teacher asked us to do before the first class:
Bring three short ideas, no more than two or three sentences, describing personal essays you would like to write. Bring three other short ideas, same length, describing personal essays you would never, ever, ever consider writing in a million years, because they’re too shameful, would hurt too many people, would destroy your career or for any other reason. IMPORTANT: Don’t worry too much about whether any of these ideas are sell-able.Pretty intriguing huh? I'm not going to share my answer here because of all those reasons listed above, but I think it's a great exercise. I have a feeling those never ever in a million years ideas are going to be the ones we're encouraged to write about, don't you think? If you're interested in writing personal essays too, you should try this exercise!
In other writing news, I'm going to be writing weekly recaps of Downton Abbey Season 3 episodes for XOJane!! I will post the links here, but they will be scheduled to go up on Mondays after each episode. I know a bunch of you are fans of the show, so I hope you follow along with me over on XOJane, I can't wait to talk about every single ridiculous, hilarious heart breaking and beautiful thing ad nauseam!
Stay tuned for some design changes around these parts as well! And please be patient if things look a little incomplete for a bit. Here's to doing totally scary things in 2013 that you know are totally good for you. Do you have a scary thing? Let's talk about it in the comments and try to make it less scary.