This picture of me wearing the most makeup I've ever worn, pretty much sums this post up.
I saw a post of Facebook about September 21st being "Fresh Face Day" the idea being to "take a break from makeup and talk about beauty." And while I think this is a great idea,especially since it was created by a 15 year old girl, my participation won't really have the same effect because I pretty much never wear makeup. As in I have a makeup bag, but it includes things like a MAC blush compact that my cousin gave me when she used to work there from, I don't know, 2007?
So I thought I'd share what goes through my brain when I think about my relationship with make up.
I first remember asking my mom if I could wear mascara in high school (maybe 9th grade?) and I remember feeling weird about it. I think her reaction was something along the lines of, "I was wondering when you'd get curious about make up, and sure!" I remember girls starting to wear makeup in middle school, and for whatever reason, it just wasn't for me. The idea of using makeup myself embarrassed then in this weird way- it doesn't make sense, but that's the only way I can describe the feeling. I was embarrassed to try makeup on. I think because when I did, my face looked so completely different to me (maybe not as extreme to others) and I was afraid everyone would stare at me. Very similar to the feeling I had back then when I got a new haircut. I connect this to your typical adolescence awkwardness and also to the fact that I was always really tall, and people were always pointing that out. My entire childhood, I just wanted to blend in. I guess not wearing makeup was one small way that I could try to do that.
I'm pretty sure my first tube of mascara dried out pretty quickly. I hated trying to put makeup on. It was similar to drawing or sewing or painting my nails. It involved small motor skills which I have never had (and still don't to this day). I sort of decided I just wouldn't wear makeup, just like I decided I just wouldn't wear heels. Writing this now, I think it makes me seem super confidant. Like I didn't need make up to hide behind and feel comfortable as a teenager. But in reality, I think that wearing makeup or high heels always made me feel the opposite of how most girls feel in those things. It always made me feel uncomfortable and self conscious. And I think I saw the girls who wore fun makeup every day as the confidant ones. The other problem was I was always touching my eyes or rubbing my face and I couldn't for the life of me figure out how to eat with lipstick on.
In college, I started wearing eye makeup every once in a while and had fun with it. I never felt tied down to having to wear makeup - something that I've heard woman talk about before, and I think that's how my relationship with makeup has remained. I just started wearing lipstick occasionally last year and sometimes like a little blush, mascara and eye liner (only on the bottom, because I just can't do it right on top). I never wear makeup to work though, again because I feel self conscious! Like everyone would say, "oh you're wearing makeup today!" I know, it's silly. Who cares, right? And also, that probably wouldn't even happen. I also know though that it would either completely rub off or I would have to keep checking myself in the mirror every 45 minutes, which just isn't my style. I don't really like the way my skin feels after a few hours of wearing makeup. I just can't imagine wearing it all day, every day. Although I understand why some people do.
As a bridesmaid in my cousin's wedding (the one who gave me that compact) we all had our makeup done professionally, and I remember feeling so silly with layers of foundation and fake eyelashes. I felt completely unnatural and pretty uncomfortable. But people kept telling me I looked amazing, and when I see pictures from that day, I agree. But the pictures tell a different story. A ton of tasteful makeup makes you look perfect for a picture, but in real like I just didn't feel like me.
I would love to hear your stories about makeup in the comments, I know there have to be so many different ones out there! How often do you wear makeup? What do you love about it? What do you hate about it? I don't think there's anything I really truly love about makeup which is why I rarely wear it. But I do think it's fun to wear sometimes, otherwise I don't think I'd ever wear it at all. Do you ever feel pressured to wear makeup? I'd love to hear from all of you!
And finally, a vlog of me going through my makeup bag with a surprise guest at the very end! Thanks for watching everyone! xo
The secret life of my makeup bag from Well and Cheaply on Vimeo.