I feel like I haven't had any meaty posts up lately. Those that I categorize as a "things I'm afraid to tell you" topic. I love writing these types of posts because not only do they usually make me feel really good, but I'm also always so encouraged by reader's reactions. The thing is though, lately I just haven't been inspired. I know these posts can't be forced and that the reason they are so satisfying is because they are true in their deepest form. So I'm not sure if I just haven't been having these deeper thoughts lately or if I'm feeling like keeping them more to myself.
The thing with me, that I'm still trying to figure out, is that most of the time, I'll feel something about something or another for a long time and not even realize it at all. It takes me a while to process my emotions, even though I am a very emotional person. And while writing those emotions out is a really good way for me to work on the process, I need to get to that starting point first, and sometimes that takes a long while.
I even hesitated to write this post because I worried that a blog post about not knowing what to write about would be boring. But Alex suggested it,when I was talking to him about not knowing what to write about, and I really just want to post something, so I figure this was as close as I was going to come to being honest and true today.
I know I can't be prolific all the time and that my creative side goes away sometimes but always comes back. I can't help but wonder though, does it start to go away, just as I'm gaining readership? Or planning something new? Is this creativity dry spell connected to fear and I don't even realize it yet? As much as I really enjoy taking risks and putting myself out there (this blog and writing novels are two of the biggest risks I've ever taken in my life) I know that deep down, it's a really scary thing. Even though it can be so rewarding, letting the world see your true, honest and genuine self is scary. And I've never been one who likes to scare myself.
So, I guess this post is asking you to bear with me readers, don't stop believing in me- because I need you. And stay tuned. Tomorrow is the first official day of the Comment Love Challenge! Have you signed up yet? I think maybe I'll focus more on commenting that writing my own posts this week, and see where that takes me.
Thanks for listening, pals