Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Lack of "deep posting" blues

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I feel like I haven't had any meaty posts up lately.  Those that I categorize as a "things I'm afraid to tell you" topic.  I love writing these types of posts because not only do they usually make me feel really good, but I'm also always so encouraged by reader's reactions.  The thing is though, lately I just haven't been inspired.  I know these posts can't be forced and that the reason they are so satisfying is because they are true in their deepest form.  So I'm not sure if I just haven't been having these deeper thoughts lately or if I'm feeling like keeping them more to myself.

The thing with me, that I'm still trying to figure out, is that most of the time, I'll feel something about something or another for a long time and not even realize it at all.  It takes me a while to process my emotions, even though I am a very emotional person.  And while writing those emotions out is a really good way for me to work on the process, I need to get to that starting point first, and sometimes that takes a long while.

I even hesitated to write this post because I worried that a blog post about not knowing what to write about would be boring.  But Alex suggested it,when I was talking to him about not knowing what to write about, and I really just want to post something, so I figure this was as close as I was going to come to being honest and true today.

I know I can't be prolific all the time and that my creative side goes away sometimes but always comes back.  I can't help but wonder though, does it start to go away, just as I'm gaining readership? Or planning something new?  Is this creativity dry spell connected to fear and I don't even realize it yet?  As much as I really enjoy taking risks and putting myself out there (this blog and writing novels are two of the biggest risks I've ever taken in my life) I know that deep down, it's a really scary thing.  Even though it can be so rewarding, letting the world see your true, honest and genuine self is scary.  And I've never been one who likes to scare myself.

So, I guess this post is asking you to bear with me readers, don't stop believing in me- because I need you.  And stay tuned.  Tomorrow is the first official day of the Comment Love Challenge!  Have you signed up yet?  I think maybe I'll focus more on commenting that writing my own posts this week, and see where that takes me.

Thanks for listening, pals

8 comments:

  1. I am so with you on this. The weeks where I post a couple "meaty" posts while mixing in the day to day feel so good because I feel such relief with working through my thoughts and putting them out there, but lately I have hardly been posting at all. There are plenty things to write about but I feel the lack of motivation that so often bites me and it's been really hard to shake. I would say I'm glad to know I'm not alone in this, but it's really not something I'd wish on anyone, so let's just say hopefully the changing seasons bring us both a little motivation here soon.

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    1. Thanks Sara!You're right, it is glad to know you're not alone but not something you'd wish on anyone. I like you change of seasons mentality. Can't wait to start blogging about pumpkin spice lattes lol :)

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  2. I didn't find this post boring at all. I've been feeling the same way lately and instead of just deciding to abandon my blog, I've decided to not worry about how often I post and just post when I feel like it. I'm sure I'll lose my huge audience (there's maybe 4 or 5 regular commentors), but I've decided it's only an outlet for me, not a vehicle for validation (which was starting to mess with my head when I first started). I like this kind of post, because even if you think you aren't offering something deep and meaningful-you are. You are sharing a struggle that most creative people can relate to and it feels good know that one is not alone.

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    1. Thanks so much Heather! I love the phrase "It's an outlet for me, not a vehicle for validation." That should be every blogger's mantra. A great reminder, so thanks!

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  3. it's okay to not always write the most groundbreaking post. Who doesn't like variety in blogs, you know? When the creativity comes, it will come. Be patient -- don't force it, because, well, it will obviously seem forced, and THAT is one thing no one likes. Be true to yourself, and if that means writing a post about not knowing what to write about, then I think your readers will be happy with it.

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    1. Aww, thanks for the encouraging words Hannah Debbie! xo

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  4. I'm having a similar thing at the moment where I've got lots of "deep" topics going around in my mind but I've not had the motivation or the creativity to write them down the way I want them. It's frustrating, but I'm sure we'll both get right back to it. And hey, we're both awesome bloggers so it doesn't even matter hahaha xx

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