Monday, July 9, 2012

A letter to 16 year old me


Dave Matthews CD!

























Dear 16 year old me,

Hi!  It's me, and I'm reluctant to say that I'm almost having a hard time remembering you.  Don't get mad!  Maybe my memory of you will come back while I try to write this letter. It's more like I have a blurred memory of high school you rather than specifically 16 year old you.   Being that it's the middle of a July afternoon, you're probably getting ready for color guard practice and since you're a sophomore now, you know your stuff.  Band camp is going to be awesome this year, as it will also be the next two summers. You're going to find a confidence that only a really good music education program can give you and make some amazing memories. That is something you're going to think about every time you're in a big field of grass on a hot day.  And it's nice.

You already know that close friendships don't last forever, no matter what the Spice Girls say.  And while you're not going to stay in touch with your best friend right now, or the girls you invited to your sweet sixteen trip into New York City, you will remember them fondly and hope they do the same for you.  This weird and  kind of annoying thing called Facebook will help you know how they're doing which is kind of cool.  Friendships will still disappoint you sometimes when you are an adult in just as big of a way as it feels now when you're 16, but don't worry, you're going to eventually feel like you understand what you want out of a friendship and that's a good thing.

Can you believe it? You have a serious taste change in music when you get to college, and eventually not only will you not listen to Dave Matthews Band anymore, but people will laugh at you when you tell them they were your all time favorite band for a long time.  I know, you don't believe me.  That's okay though, because when they come on the radio, you still remember all of the words and sing along with pride, you're just not that into them anymore.  It's just one example of what a big world there is out there for you to discover still.  Guess what, you're going to do some discovering just like you thought you were.  Go you.

16 year old me, I feel like you might have thought that 30 year old me would have everything "figured out."  The only thing I can tell you is that you will come to realize that you're never going to stop figuring it all out and that's a really good thing.  You're still going to want to learn when you're thirty.  You're going to want to take classes and watch weird movies and read a ton of books.  You're even going to be less snobby in your book choices and become somewhat of an expert in young adult literature.  Keep reading those classics right now though, they're going to make you who you are today.

I know you love your parents and your family today, but try to remember that your parents are just people.  They're still figuring it out too.  They're really good at giving advice and listening.  They're not trying to judge you or control you, they just want to know who you are and for you to be safe and happy.  Remember that when they talk to you, they're not perfect and that's what makes them so amazing.

Don't bother going to the junior prom.  You're going to go because people are going to make you think you're going to regret missing out on something that you already know isn't really your thing. You will go and have an ok time, but it's not something you'll really remember about high school. Luckily, you don't go to your senior prom, because you're learning what you like and not afraid to do something different.  Keep doing what you like, no one cares but you.  It's actually really cool to be different.  Don't go see scary movies, don't go see a band you don't like, don't buy something from Abercrombie because it's supposed to be cool.  Wear what you want, you have amazing style.  Don't hold back.

Just because you're not in all of the honors classes and have a really hard time in math and science doesn't mean you're not smart.  You're actually really smart and a good writer.  Don't be afraid to share your writing with people and don't be afraid to speak up when you have something to say. Especially when you have something funny to say, because you are really funny.  This will get easier with practice, so why not start practicing now?  You are smart and pretty and are eventually going to love the fact that you are tall (I know, Mom was right all along).  But you will never wear heels and the man  you marry won't be taller than you.  You're going to be the same height and guess what?  It totally doesn't matter.

I guess I'll end this letter by saying that I love you, let yourself change and become you, because you're awesome but don't worry you're not quite there yet.

Love always,
Sarah

Romeo and Juliet poster, Delia's catalog, Gone With The Wind blanket, and reading a book.  Pretty much sums me up.



Thank you Jes and Sierra for the inspiration!

14 comments:

  1. This is fantastic! Especially the part about thinking you'll have it all figured out by 30...I definitely thought that, and while I still have a couple years to go, I don't think I'm going to have any major epiphanies in that time. :)

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    1. Thanks for reading Courtney! And if you do have any major epiphanies in the next couple of years, please let me know!

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    1. I know! Actually, I should have written dELiA*s, which is the proper spelling.

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  3. That Delia's catalog just gave me a huge wave of nostalgia! lol

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    1. I know! I just went on their website and requested a catalog! LOL

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  4. This was so fun to read. I think I need to do one of my own, but I don't even know that I want to go there. I love reading more about you though and seeing more we have in common. Here here for color guard members and for tall ladies!

    Please keep writing and sharing, for I'm a big fan of reading your words.

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    1. Thank you so much Sara! That really means a lot to me. Yay colorguard!

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  5. I really enjoyed this Sarah! Isn't it funny that when you're 16 you think you've got it all figured out, but really all the major figuring out is still left to do. That's why these letters to your past self are so interesting. My priorities and perspectives were so unbelievably different when I was 16 so maybe it'd be fun to revisit!

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  6. So wonderful....I can't even believe how much of this letter could be to myself. Especially Dave. :) I think we are the same age? I just turned 30 this year!

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  7. Sarah,
    I knew you when you were 16 (and probably haven't spoken since not long after that!) and if I had to pick one word to describe you then, it was lovely. You seemed to have it figured out back then. :)
    Tess (Barton) O'Brien

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    1. Tess! You are so sweet. Thank you so much for you comment and for reading! xoxo

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